Blech.

So a wrench got thrown in the kidney donation process. Yesterday I had an ultrasound to check out the cyst on my right ovary that UCSF discovered and it did not turn out as normal as we assumed. Two years ago I had surgery to take a cyst off my right ovary because it was causing pain (think hot poker in abdomen pain that didn't stop). It didn't surprise me that it came back; I figured it had because I've been having pain but nothing like before. Well, my doctor wants to remove the cyst, along with my ovary. As soon as possible. I am supposed to hear from scheduling on Monday for the pre-op appointment with the doctor (mine is going out of town for 3 weeks) that will do the surgery and the surgery appointment.

I had blood taken right after my appointment to check for elevated levels in the cancer markers, but the test came back normal today (yay!). So I have to wait even longer to go through this surgery, re-cooperate from it, and hope UCSF will still consider my kidney. All other tests have come back normal. Go figure it's the last one that reveals something, though I admit I should have had a follow up after a year or so (though it was never suggested to me). And they're presenting our case to the board on Monday. I'm hoping they will say when (not if) the biopsy results come back negative for cancer, then the transplant is approved so we don't have to go to the board again. I'm more upset that this intruded upon the transplant than losing my ovary. I know my health comes first, but this is months of waiting come to a halt.

In the mean time, I have been trying to get my stuff in the living room organized. Yes, still. I managed to fill up a big bin and a half of yarn that I do not want (it's amazing how many people give me stuff from dead relatives because they know no one else who is crafty). I still have a bit more yarn than I should. I bought 4 bins from Micheal's and 3 of them hold blanket projects while one holds my more "expensive" soft yarn. The rest of the yarn will go in clear bins on my "extra's" shelf in the shed. As I use the yarn, I can bring more in the house.

When I put up the new shelves, I got rid of some fabric but I have yet to go through and organize it to get rid of more, because I know there is some I will never use. Such as polyester, or the more silk-type that I have trouble sewing with. I'm a cotton girl. I have no clue where to put my scrap books right now, or the paintings I've finished/am working on. I have my unused canvases under my TV, where I've had them before, and it's just a good spot for them. My paints take up almost an entire 9-cube shelf, but I haven't gone through them yet to get rid of the dried paints (except the ones that belonged to my great grandmother...after how many years I finally part with them, but I did keep ONE). And the rest of my craft supplies I have no idea what to do with. I've been sticking them in a bag to organize later.

I have some figurines/knick-knacks I've decided I will put on shelves above the windows. Nothing else will fit up there. If I'm to have surgery in the next week, I really need to get to cleaning so I can make a clear path. Seriously wasn't expecting that. Last surgery I was off for 2 weeks, so not sure how this one will be. Will still be laproscopic.

Tonight I started watching The Daniel Plan to help get tips on losing weight. It's something the Saddle Back Church put together. I started my negative-thought journal. To turn around a negative thought, you ask yourself 4 questions then pose it as positive one and ask if it's true. ANTS=Automatic Negative Thoughts. You need to do this at least 100 times to help make it a habit. Yikes! They said keep them in a journal. I started a small one, so it'll probably take two. I needed it to fit in my purse. It is supposed to help immensely with depression and anxiety. I'm all gung ho for this. I don't want to have to take drugs and I know thought is a powerful process.

So now I go to bed. I'm going to try to sleep in tomorrow and I was going to stay home, but I think I'll want to run to Target for more of the clear bins I need and possibly gas my car up. Depends on how overwhelmed I get from trying to organize my craft bits.